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Problems
Eating disorders - Anorexia
Jenny from London was a sufferer of anorexia for a number
of years and here she tells her story:
'I developed anorexia in my twenties as a way of coping. I didn't
feel I could verbalise my feelings and kept everything to myself.
I had experienced childhood sexual abuse and was also sexually attacked
as an adult. I told nobody and started to control my eating, eating
as little as I could as I felt this was one thing I had control over.
It seemed like people did whatever they wanted to me and I had no
control over that. I felt if I could make myself smaller and smaller
nobody could find me to hurt me. It also helped me to stop thinking
about the abuse by focussing all my attention on eating, exercising,
constantly weighing myself. I had always felt I had to be perfect
but because of having such low self esteem I had never felt I was
'good enough' for anyone or at anything I did. In a strange way not
eating made me feel I was being good at something and achieving something
which other people couldn't. I also know now that it was a way of
expressing anger - I was angry at the people who hurt me and angry
at the people who didn't protect me and I turned that anger inward
by taking it out on myself which frequently led to suicidal feelings
and also harming myself by cutting my arms.
I was lucky enough to recognise that I needed someone to help me
although I had always pretended to be strong and coping and taking
care of everyone else so it was not easy to ask for help but I'm
glad that I did. Talking to a counsellor made me realise the most
important thing was to try and talk about my feelings - or write
them down and to try and build a support network around myself and
not to be afraid to ask people for help when I needed it. I was also
able to talk through the trauma that I had suffered in my life and
that was a tremendous release for me. The counsellor helped me to
see that the abuse was in no way my fault and helped me to improve
my self esteem and my ability to cope and ways to deal with anger
in a more positive way which didn't involve harming myself.
When you have anorexia the most important thing is to talk to someone.
You cannot cope with it alone - if you do you could end up dead'!
(the above has been included on this website with Jenny's permission)
Anorexia is a way of coping with a whole series of problems. For
various reasons the anorexic feels unsafe in the world and by not eating
she/he feels more able to cope with her world. Life can be seen as
frightening, full of situations, responsibilities and experiences which
she/he feels unable to cope with. The type of person who develops anorexia
is usually someone who is very self conscious, someone who lacks confidence,
someone who strives to be perfect, someone who is over submissive and
passive, someone who is intelligent and a high achiever and someone
who has difficulty in outwardly expressing feelings. It is also difficult
for the anorexic to outwardly express anger and to cope with any kind
of conflict. There can also be a confusion about how to handle sexuality.
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Moving towards recovery
If you have an eating disorder you have to really want to get better
and become a more healthy and positive person. This may mean finding
help and support to help you let go of the hurt and pain you may be
experiencing which has led you to develop an eating disorder as a way
of coping. You need to be able to address the underlying cause of the
eating disorder as well as deal with the eating disorder itself. You
need to be ready to face whatever it is about yourself that you may
not like, it may be that something traumatic or difficult has happened
which you feel unable to face and deal with so you focus on not eating
or controlling your eating in order that you don't have to deal with
the underlying cause.
- You have to be ready to admit to yourself that you do have an eating
problem. It is common for those with anorexia to convince themselves
they do not have a problem.
- You have to ask yourself the question - do you want to spend the
rest of your life controlling your eating, weighing yourself and
feeling isolated, depressed, or do you want to turn your life around
by using your energy in a positive way to get better, to start taking
care of yourself and valuing yourself.
- The body needs food to work properly. Just as a car needs petrol
to run smoothly. If a car is running on the last few dregs of petrol
the engine will not run as well and will eventually cease up when
the petrol runs out. The same with your body. It needs nutrients
from food to keep it healthy - by starving yourself and restricting
your eating you will feel more tired, have less energy, have more
headaches, feel more depressed, be susceptible to more colds and
infections because you are running your body down. In the long term
you could be causing damage to your internal organs, and could lead
to infertility problems.
- If you have anorexia you may feel that it helps you to have a feeling
of controlling something in your life - however - eventually the
anorexia will be controlling you and it will be another thing in
your life which you have no control over. It is important, therefore,
to get help as soon as you can.
- Having anorexia may give you a feeling of being special and feeling
that you are good at something i.e. good at restricting your food
intake. If this is the case then look for something else which you
can feel good at - something which will give you a sense of satisfaction
and pride. Maybe you can think about completing a course, an exam,
going out into the community to help someone in the form of voluntary
work, - you don't need to give up food to make yourself feel good.
You may already be good at writing poetry, writing stories, painting,
being a good listener, being a caring person towards your friends
- take time out to look at the things you are already good and successful
at.
- Talk to your GP who will also be able to advise you of a healthy
minimum weight for your height and frame.
- Find a counsellor who you can talk to about your problems and the
way you are feeling and a counsellor will try and help you to look
at the underlying cause which has led to the eating disorder.
- Build a support network around you - this could include making
use of telephone helplines, resources on the internet etc.
- Try to give yourself small goals to work towards. Work towards
eventually reaching your minimum healthy weight but break it down
into small stages e.g. if the minimum weight for you should be 8
stone and you are currently six and a half stone make your first
target to get to six and three quarters - when you succeed in that
set yourself the next target of seven stone etc. until you are up
to the minimum weight.
- Each time you put on weight if you feel panicky and upset - take
control of these feelings and tell yourself that putting on weight
is a positive thing to do and it shows you are now ready to start
taking care of yourself, taking control of your life and you are
doing something to value yourself and are letting go of the need
to control your weight.
- By eating sensibly and exercising regularly you are not going to
get fat - some people think if they reach their target weight the
weight will keep going up and up - this wont happen if you eat a
healthy diet, eat foods low in saturated fat, drink plenty of water,
eat plenty of oily fish, fruit and vegetables etc. It is important
to eat carbohydrates but not to excess.
- If you are worried that your weight will keep going up once you
have reached your target weight - you can always weigh yourself once
a week and if you feel you are putting on weight over and above your
target weight then for the next week - exercise more, cut down on
sweets, cakes, biscuits etc. - this is a way of maintaining your
weight at a healthy weight and means that you are in control.
- You will find that when you start putting on weight, if you are
also finding ways of expressing your feelings through counselling
then you should start to feel less depressed and tired and more in
control of your own life.
- Eating healthily does not mean starving yourself of all the foods
you like to eat. Some people find it works to treat themselves at
weekends with a cake or some biscuits or chocolate.
- If at the moment you are finding it really difficult to eat then
start by eating foods which may be easier to eat like soup, yogurt,
readybreak, etc. Try to eat something each day and try and eat little
and often.
- If you are constantly weighing yourself try to be in control of
this - try not to weigh yourself more than once a day, then try and
weigh yourself every other day, then eventually only once a week
and then once a fortnight. After this you may not feel the need to
weigh yourself on a regular basis.
- Try not to exercise excessively - this means the exercising is
controlling you - if you want to be in control of your life you should
be able to control how much you exercise.
- If you are not continually weighing yourself and exercising you
will have time to try and look for new activities you can get involved
in which will give you something else to focus on other than your
eating disorder.
- Try to think of healthy ways of getting out your feelings and
emotions. This could include, writing about how you feel, poetry,
drawing, art, exercising, dancing, learning self defence, etc.
- Try not to put too much pressure on yourself. You don't have to
be perfect and nobody is perfect. Everyone makes mistakes, everyone
has off days, and everyone at some time in their life wishes they
had done things differently or better - if you try your best you
cannot ask for more than that.
- Recognise that it is ok to ask for help and to express your feelings.
You may be a very sensitive caring person who is always there to
help your friends, family and maybe putting on a mask that you are
happy and coping all the time. There is nothing wrong in saying to
someone you are having an off day, or that you feel down or need
a hug.
- You are there for others so let others be there for you. You don't
need to hide your feelings all the time. I am sure you would want
to know if your friend was going through a hard time so you could
give her/him some support - so think about confiding in a few friends
you can trust as they may be there to give you support when you need
it.
- See yourself in a realistic light - focus on the good qualities
and talents you have and don't keep running yourself down.
- Be kind to yourself - talk to yourself as you would talk to a friend.
By overcoming anorexia you ARE taking control of your life - you
are taking control and using your strength and determination to overcome
anorexia in order to be a healthy person both physically and emotionally
in order that you can move on with your life and achieve the things
you want to achieve.
If you are controlling your eating as a means of coping because
you have been abused please see the pages on Abuse on this site.
Blanking or denying that something has happened won't make it go
away, by facing reality and dealing with the reasons you are controlling
your eating is a way of taking the control back in your own life.
If you get help and support for the abuse you will find you won't
need to keep hold of the eating disorder.
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Organisations which can offer support and information for eating
disorders
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Anorexia and Bulimia Care: 01462 423351, www.anorexiabulimiacare.co.uk -
National Christian organisation run by Christians for sufferers,
families and carers. Support, advice, information and befriending
to sufferers and families. Can put parents of sufferers in contract
with other parents of sufferers
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beat - beat eating disorders (formerly the Eating Disorders Association) Helpline: 0845 6341414, email help@b-eat.co.uk; b-eat Youthline 0845 634 7650, email fyp@b-eat.co.uk, www.b-eat.co.uk
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British Nutrition Foundation: 020 7404 6504 -
Provides information and advice on nutrition and related health
matters. Produce a wide range of leaflets and books
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DABS Mail Order Book Catalogue: 01709 860023 -
Books relating to Eating Disorders, Child Abuse, Self Esteem, Assertiveness,
Self Harm etc
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Caraline: 01582 457474, email info@caraline.com, www.caraline.com -
Telephone helpline, counselling and support for people experiencing
anorexia, bulimia and compulsive overeaters. Monthly self help
group, individual counselling and specialised programmes. Helpline
national, other services Bedfordshire
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Independence: 01223 566130 - Publishes book Coping
with Eating Disorders price approx. £5.95
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The International Eating Disorders Centre: 01296 330557, www.eatingdisorderscentre.co.uk -
Run short residential combined out patient programmes and inpatient
programmes for sufferers
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The National Centre for Eating Disorders: 0845 838 20 40, www.eating-disorders.org.uk - Details of therapists who specialise in the treatment
of eating disorders
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National Institute for Health & Clinical Excellence: 020 7067 5800 - Publish guidelines relating to Treatment of Anorexia
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Northern Initiative on Women & Eating:
0191 261 7010
- Helpline and information service for anyone experiencing problems
with food and for their families and professionals.
The agency provides support across the whole spectrum of eating problems including
anorexia, bulimia, compulsive eating, binge eating and other associated problems
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Office of Health Economics: 020 7930 9203 - Publishes
a useful book called Eating Disorders: Anorexia Nervosa and Bulimia
Nervosa 1994 by Richard West. Cost £5
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SupportLine: 01708 765200, email info@supportline.org.uk -
Telephone Helpline providing confidential emotional support to
Children, Young Adults and Adults on any issue. Also keep details
of other agencies, support groups and counsellors throughout the
UK
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Young Minds: 0800 018 2138, email enquiries@youngminds.org.uk, www.youngminds.org.uk -
Helpline and other support services for parents concerned about
the mental health of a baby, child, or young person. Produces a
range of leaflets, reports etc
Useful websites
Useful book
Overcoming Anorexia Nervosa: A
Self Help guide Using Cognitive Behavioural
Techniques - Publishers Constable & Robinson: ISBN 1854879693
Click here to read more or buy this book
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